today was seriously fuckedup
i'm a total mess now
it was like a bomb
i was listening to Ms Lau but i totally didn't absorb
i tried to listen
but i am just spacing out.
and i was really not in the mood to be in school.
i feel like my concentration is ZERO!
i really wanted to go home
but THANKS HUIQI NATASSIA AND WANQI FOR HELPING ME (:
Huiqi and Natassia stayed in class for recess to accompany me
I LOVE THEM
and they are really funny.


SO HISTORY TEST!
I SCREWED BADLY
HERE'S HOW!
the question was about
whether stalin's(russian) policy about collectivisation and industrialisation was detrimental(opposite of beneficial) to USSR(russia)!


so i wrote IT DID NOT AFFECT USSR AT ALL!
cause i forgot that stalin was RUSSIAN!
and i thought he was GERMANY!
so i said this whole thing concerns Germany ONLY
and had NOTHING got to do with RUSSIA!
NOTHING!
that is how much i screwed it up!
and when i found out, i just felt like a mess
like i am INCAPABLE OF THINKING.
seriously the questiong was fucking easy!


i have no idea what i am thinking now
and i am just spacing out
i came home, watched tv fell asleep
woke up
spaced out
and i am not blogging


i want to take the plunge
i want to keep falling
not giving a care to the world
and be oblivious to my surroundings