i am supposed to be doing my narrative essay
but i seriously have no idea or inspiration. SO i am doomed
WHAT TO WRITE!!!!!!!!
anyway i can't decide whether i like this year.
i mean i do ALOT! i made many friends, schoold feels more fun, not very bitchy, i feel happy everywhere i go, and i don't give a damn about what people think of me.


BUT
alot of things disapeared too.
like sss, i keep blogging about how i miss sss and stuff
but i don't know, it just feels so empty
without them. like my holidays revolved around sss, any holiday means a sleepover.
our camwhoring moments
our what's that a hat moments
our singing moments
our peejays moments
our shopping moments
our tennis moments
they all just seem to be in the past only
sss recess aren't suriviving anymore
and our sss rings too.
and i am drifting from other things as well.



but i love this year too.
i feel more free...
i don't know why although it is realy rally stress but my class makes it better
friends too.
and i made new friends too! or started talking to old friends like:
hui qi
rachel
wenn er
natassia
wan qi
sarah
tabitha



no matter how much i study it doesn't work out
i know people think i don't study
i do! but it doesn't mean you must see it,
and you always ask in this
DUH-you-didn't-study tone.
somehow everyone doesn't seem to notice changes!


i can't take the silence
i feel myself slowly letting go of your hand
but you don't seem like you care
i feel like i got no one to turn to
bottled up feelings remain in my heart.