The house is so empty :(
and i am busy scanning chan's paper 1 and paper 2. SHE OWES ME. i am sacrificing valuable social studies time!
it kind of feels nice whenever my dad smses me at night to ask me how i am and informs me where he is.
but somehow when he's home, i have nothing to say to him.
he comes home, he says hi i say hi. and that's the end.
Ian lau better come home this weekend, cause it is getting awkward!

i miss you. i have no idea how many times i have said this.
but i can't take it, everything is screwed.
i forgot to bring home ss textbook. GREAT.


the early hours of the morning, the sensual cold wind grasp my feet and i feel the anxiety creeping back into me. as my eyelids get heavier with every blink, time passes faster and before you know it, the sunlight crawls into the room. another day of sheer torture and senseless panic attacks. breaking down is becoming an option and there is nothing else you can do. hope,fear,stress.

HEY TASS CHIN CHEEEEEEEEER UP!
DON'T WORRY SO MUCH K!
and don't stress :(
STOP CRYING > : ( !!!!!!!!!!!
AND i will limit my jokes on I'M COLD, MANGO, AND OLD K!!!!!!!
And don't pressurise yourself!!!!
and try not to think so much about what is happening to you k!
will keep you in prayer!!!
God loves you!
AND SO DO I!
loveyouloveyouloveyounaeffnaeff!!!!!!

k random blogpost. NOW. CAUSE I FEEL LIKE BLOGGING.
1. Today was horribly draggy
2. Rachel and i kind of lost respect for someone today
3. Enaeff is Enaeff (credits to tass chin)
4. Aprime was crazy.
5. I AM SEEING NUMBERS, it is driving me crazy
6. Tomorrow's a holiday, JEALOUS GUYS???
7. I want a sss sleepover
8. it's been ages, i miss them SO SO MUCH. i want to swim :(
9.i want to camwhore.
10. i need to train, it's been ages too.
11. i love all my friends.
12. they make my day WONDERFUL!
13. Macs just now with huiqi, tass, renhui and Nat.
14. i really don't want nat to go to phillipines :(
15. Exams are in 4 days.
16. OH GOLLY why am i blogging i should be studying.
17. i should update my blog with some photos :D
18. i need therapy from Arie.
19. I am still sufering from my anxiety attack from Amath.
20. 36 and it is STILL A RECORD. love you!!!!!!!!!!!!
just to add in,
21. RENHUI 21 POINTS!
BYEEEEEEE

ARIE:u are so skinny tat it means ur fats come out?HAHAHHAHAH!
Amelia :stop being stupid, that does not make sense!!!!
ARIE:actually it doesit means tat ur fats are still showing despite being skinny
ARIE: .__.


HAHA YOU'RE SO SKINNY THAT YOUR FATS COME OUT?! hahah, that is retarded!
anyway i just remember the conversation mich, kenneth, brenda, renhui and i were having yesterday!


renhui: It's threadless (talking about his shirt)
Kenneth: No what it's cotton (obviously not knowing what threadless is)
Brenda and i started laughing like crazy after that!


k bye.

Church was good (:
i kind of missed the church people during the weekdays!
like Nat, Mich, Kenneth, Brenda, Renhui, and everyone else.
so cell studying session was kind of...... FAIL. i think kenneth successfully copied stuff.
but i just couldn't do math ): so we ended up taking photos for our profile pictures.
oh and i owe Kenneth a candy bar/ chocolate bar forgot.
cause we were finding Tass, and i called her 3 times, BUT SHE DIDN'T PICK UP.
AND whoever finds tass first and tap her will win a candy bar. then Kenneth called her and she picked up!
and kenneth saw her first but didn't tap her(i think he forgot)
so then I RAN TOWARDS HER FIRST AND WANTED TO TAP HER, so close, but then, SHE RAN FURTHER AWAY. and i couldn't run anymore in my shoes, so Kenneth tapped her first.
THAT WAS STUPID.


so i think worship was good,
i kept laughing at tass! I LOVE IT WHEN SHE CLAPS. hahaha alway reminds me of that time! and she looks damn cute on the stage, HAHA. this compliment is to make up for not helping her yesterday. SORRY TASS!
LOVE YOUUUUUUU! (naeff naeff!)


NAT GHUIIIIII CHEER UP!!!!!!!!!!!
i forgot to pass you your princess thingy!
LOVE YOU (:


omg studied so much today!
woke up at like 8.45 today, studied till 1.30 then watched speed racer, I LOVE THE COLOURS.
THEN continued stuying, and took a short nap.
SS IS KILLING ME. and i haven't started on chem,bio,hist, lit at alll.
Amelia, STUDY,STUDY,STUDY,STUDY!


sitting here, looking past the horizon.
wishing that night time would last longer,
cause as soon as day breaks, i am telling myself to say goodbye,
goodbye to you.
and that is never easy to do, and time is not in my hands.

OMG ORAL WAS SO HORRIBLE.
i screwed up my chinese, HAHA RACHEL'S INSTINCTS WERE ACCURATE.
stupid youth olympics, LIKE SERIOUSLY, THERE WAS NO LINK :(
OH and sorry chan i ditched you, YOU COULD HAVE JOINED US AT MACS, but i bought you a snack right, THAT SHOULD MAKE UP FOR IT (:
went to macs with Audrey and Tass.
haha " he is attracted to bigger girl " ;)
ONE DAY tass and i will get out the name from audrey. WE WILL AND WE MUST.
RIGHT, on the way home i met gloria, and she was talking on the phone with tass.
coincidental MUCH?
K, she did somethin really stupid, IT WAS HILARIOUS(y) good one RGS GIRL (:


My sister smsed me, this super nice sms, my mum too.
i miss both of them so much!
AND they bought me jellybeans :D
i am in desperate need of a sugar rush.
AND it's my mum's birthday tomorrow
note to self: SMS MUM.
and i am addicted to beautiful one. i've listened to i more than 10 times.
k bye.


Sometimes you're too afraid to know what it's like the get hurt over and over. wondering when this pain will end, and it makes you afraid to love.

omg i love KYUHYUN SO MUCH. but he stilll shouldn't have cut his hair!
AND I AM STARTING TO LIKE HANKYUNG AND DONGHAE MORE AND MORE
SO CUTEEEEEE! why is it chinese though?!

THIS IS SPECIALLY FOR SOMEONE.
okay who do you think you are?! like EXCUSE ME THERE IS SOMETHING CALLED A BACKSPACE SO WHY DO YOU cancel! and i mean, WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LET IT GO, it's over and they've moved on so should you right? and who's the desperate one? if you ask anyone they will all agree that it is you. so please give her a BREAK k! and you have someone else right? posting that FABULOUS conversations right? damn funny SIA (sounds familiar?) HMMM maybe? okay i feel so mean now but yah, just try to understand that they are happy SO YOU MOVE ON AND BE HAPPY TOO, and leave them alone. KKTHXBAI.

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.
wasn't as good as i thought it would be, but i miss everyone (:
MY DEAR KAILIN'S WONDERFUL SINGING, PARK AND KIM.
TASS'S FREELOADING, HUIQI'S WHEAT BREAD OBSSESSION, RACHEL'S AWESOME SMILE, WENN ER'S FANTABULOUS CHINESE TIZIANA'S GOSSIP, AMI'S AND PEIWEI'S BUBBLY LAUGHTER.


well HISTORY WAS FUNNY AND GOOD
cause we did like REVISION? beats all those SBQ and SEQ stuff we had, and i bet it was CHAN'S BEST PERIOD OF THE DAY RIGHT!
oh laoshi was funny too, and rachel was pissed off cause we were doing this whole chinese passage and it was ONLY ABOUT A TREE.
Had aprime after that it was quite productive?
OMG SO MANY FORMULAS.
met RH cause he wanted to pass me my 6 bucks. accompanied hq to the bus stop to take 153.
AND IT WAS QUITE STUPID CAUSE I ENDED UP STANDING DOWNSTAIRS AND SHE WENT UP. so me accompanying her onto 153 was, FAIL!
hahaha. right that's all,
TUESDAY TMR ):


OMG I LOVE RUIJIA, i didn't know she reads my blog! then she quoted from my blog that day, I LOVE MY ADMIN CAPTAIN TTM.


it keeps playing in my head and it seems to be stuck on repeat. it echoes on and on and there is no other way to put it. I love you, that's the only way to express your my feelings.

i love this photo! OUR MAJOR AHLIAN MOMENT.


right I SUDDENLY had this urge to blog about Monday.
so after a-prime i want to go to macs to study, alone.
BUT I met Sandra, Nat and Jia so i joined them
AND NAT IS THE FUNNIEST SHIT EVER
hahahhaha with her realy cool flip flops (APPARENTLY IT'S SUPPOSED TO HELP HER LOSE WEIGHT) and her MOSQUITO BITES.
haha
i can't get enough of that.


i'm supposed to be having tuition today, i'm quite awake now (: had a 8 hour sleep.
i was supposed to have chem tuition in the morning at 9 BUT my sister and i slept through so had it after English instead. stayed up tumblring and talking to RH last night.
i hate the thought of having school next week ): having to sleep early and wake up at 6 again.
EWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
right dinner later, i hope it is good food!
BYE.


life's at its best
when nothing else matters.

TODAY WAS REALLY GOOD.
exactly what i needed.
OH AND SORRY CHELSEA,SHANICE, NAT YAP AND JIA FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO SUPPORT YOUR MATCHES ):
i didn't know chels and shan was seeded number ONE! i'm so proud of them :D
I LOVE YOU GUYS TTM!


anyway met nat, michelle, kenneth,kai and renhui (IN ORDER OF PUNCTUALITY!)
at Kap!
it was fun, it was really messy but GOOD!
i realised studying on the bus is pretty productive.
FROM TODAY ONWARDS I AM GOING TO GROW MUCH TALLER.
so i no longer have to tiptoe when taking photos ;)
I GUESS THIS IS THE ONLY FUN I WILL GET DURING MY HOLIDAYS
but it's good enough (:
i had to rush home BEFORE 3 cause my sister was giving me tuition.
AND SHE WASN'T HOME.
i was kind of pissed cause of that, BUT I HAD A GOOD NAP AND IT'S FINE NOW.


i need to start saving up money to buy people presents.
AND BUY SOMEONE shoes! HAHA!
awwww i can't wait :D


you have a smile that is brighter than the stars
and eyes that light up the nightime city.

You just ruined my day... again.
thanks.
holidays are horrible

-fallin for you, colbie caillat


we'll take each memory and craft it into so much more

i can't take it anymore. i can't take another day of this. everyday all my parents do is bring up my horrible grades. and emphasise on the fact that i am failing english. WHO THE HELL FAILS ENGLISH RIGHT i do. and if i don't pass english eoys i will get retained. I know how much trouble i am in, and how much my future is at stake. BUT I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT if my family doesn't constantly remind me of it as if it was a daily neccessity. i am scared enough and i can't take the stress. you know i want to run away, i want to tour the world and i want to escape from this horror. today's my dad's birthday but you know it has been a while since a happy event like that has stayed happy. there is always something that goes wrong, without fail. and today my dad would have liked to end off his 50th birthday with another talk with me about my grades in the car. no internet, no phone, no tv. no social life. i hate how these talks will make me cry in front of my family cause i hate that. i love my brother for being there for me everytime i cry. now everytime i come home it's about my studies. did you study today? what did you study? i know eoys are in less than a month and i am really scared, scared that when i get my paper back all that studying will not pay off, somehow it never does. and i will have to see all my friends promote to sec 4 while i am stuck repeating my sec 3. my mum knows i hate talks about my studies, but nevertheless she still gives me talks on them. she gave it to me twice yesterday, and twice from my dad today. and a little bit here and there. I AM FREAKING TIRED OF IT. i know okay? i am trying i love everyone for helping me and i love them for being concerned about me. but it is really suffocating.

I LOVE SHANICE KHOO

Shanice. says:
CALL ME.
Shanice. says:
BEEP ME.
Shanice. says:
WHEN YOU WANNA REACH ME.
Shanice. says:
Haha, what's wrong?
Amelia ' i love how our thoughts are intertwined says:
HHAHAHA
Amelia ' i love how our thoughts are intertwined says:
THAT WAS RANDOM
Amelia ' i love how our thoughts are intertwined says:
why what's wrong
Amelia ' i love how our thoughts are intertwined says:
OH EVERYTHING'S WRONG ):
Shanice. says:
Hahhaa. whyyyy?
Amelia ' i love how our thoughts are intertwined says:
wait how did you sense something was wrong
Shanice. says:
I'm gooood. ;)

HELLO AMELIA. Everything would be fine. We'll always be here for you. And there are other people out there. So. Don't get so sad, you'll get over it soon. :) Don't think about it. And just, do other stuff. (Like, go out with SSS) Haha, yah. :) It's maybe not a bad thing, y'know. Then you won't have to go through the sad breaking-up thingy. Haha. And nothing would be perfect, even if you're with him, it might not be what you think. So yeah. It's good to be friends. Hahah. Take care. I LOVE YOU. :)
- EXTRACTED FROM SHANICE'S ONSUGAR!


THANKS SHANICE SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE. and being so AWESOMELY SMART to tell that something was wrong. I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH.
and THANK YOU CHELSEA FOR HELPING ME!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU (TIMES INFINITY ;) )
THANKS ALEXIS FOR HELPING ME TOO! and upload the photos! >:(
I LOVE YOU MEGA LOADS!
and lastly, THANKS NAT GHUI! sorry bout my foresight thing ): i think i was tired yesterday so then it was spoilt and didn't work! ILY!!!!!!!!!!


AMELIA what are you doing here you're supposed to be studying!!!
anyway,I LOVE SSS AND NAT! what will i do without them!
oh and just to add, I LOVE RUIJIA TOO!

i need a major sss moment. V.V.V. IMPORTANT ):
where is lex, shanice and chels!!!!
okay i am going to force myself to mug and not get distracted.
NOW. bye

I CAN'T SLEEP!
IT IS 2.18 AM!
i forgot to order my contacts i am down to my last pair!
my air con is leaking ): no air con tonight.


i am so confused!
I CAN'T STAND IT. urgh!
why can't life be simple, and there's only one obvious answer to everything.

Church was quite good but i kept getting distracted ):
i'm still super troubled by my studies URGH I HATE STUDIES
THANKS MICHELLE for accompanying me today (:
DINNER TOMORROW OMG GOOD FOOD!
i'm hungry again ):


i am clueless about what is happening now but i think you can sense it as well, do you know how much things have changed or are you oblivious to that? i miss how everything used to be so simple and we were contented with just each other by our side. somehow those little things has become something we took for granted, and is no longer important to us.


we all talk in lengthy sentences
compromising of the more complex words and crazy metaphors
yet we can't say the simplest three words
that we always keep deep in our hearts
longing to say it to someone special

okay SO HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yesterday was pretty long, school took ages to end ):
had a sex ed talk and it was TRAUMATISING. i felt that it wasn't neccessary to include PHOTOS! cause that was DISGUSTING!
and Chinese was extremely fun,
for some reason, just because i am a chinese rep lao shi thinks that i am in charge of everything else!
she asked me to open the door (when i obviously did not have the key, I AM NOT A CLASS REP)
she asked me to pick up rubbish
she asked me to move the chair out. hahaha
WTH!!!!!
but chinese was fun and it passed REALLY FAST!
so yah (:


Went over to lex's house with chelsea after school.
lazed around and waited for shanice to come over.
chelsea and lex checked their eprogress and they were suddenly realy bummed out so we decided to do work from out sudden motivation.
went to west mall for lex to buy her BIG BANG COFFEE!
cabbed to vivo, WHICH CAUSED A BOMB.
but shanice left cause she wasn't feeling well ):
GET WELL SOON SHANICE!!! (L)
coach picked us up (IT WAS SUPER TIRING RUNNING AROUND LOOK FOR THE CAR ): )
went to keppel, i kind of expected it to be MORE fun? but it was still fun (:
I MISSED SHANICE, CHELSEA AND LEX SO SO MUCH :(
okay that's all.


sitting by the sea with the cold breeze and warm sand wrapping around us. Your delicate eyes gaze deeply beyond the horizon and i can just spend all eveing embracing that wonderful moment.

PIVOT PIVOT PIVOT!!!

this is why i am pretty much screwed i know it is not the final thing but I AM FAILING EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT :(


it's early in the morning and the thought of you slowly invade my mind and it's bizarre how much the thought of you has been repeating.Through the night i slowly gaze at the stars, and through the day when the sun burns brightly in the midst of the soft cotton clouds and clear blue skies that i keep asking myself if it would be illlogical to say that you mean alot to me.

OMG I WENT FOR MY FABULOUS KOREAN DINNER ON SUNDAY!
it was good (:
with my mum brother and sister.
then had school on MONDAY!
we had lessons ):
and aces day was just FUNNY!
i think we were the only school who had lessons, THAT'S SAD ):


went out TODAY with NAT!!!!!!!!!!!
we walked around In ION and WISMA then walked over to cine
to meet KENNETH AND MICHELLE.
bumped into renhui and douglas!
i think douglas is too tall ): he seems to be growing taller every single time i see him!
so nat and i were just super obssessed with stuff.
watched bandslam at 3.20!
it was GOOD.
during the movie we suddenly kicked kenneth and michelle's chair (they were sitting right in front of us) so that we could like HINT to them to inch closer to each other!
but that didn't work out too well cause KENNETH turned around and poured popcorn on us ):
SO MUCH FOR HELPING hahaha but nat and i just kept laughing the whole way.
K THAT'S ABOUT IT. BYE!!!!!!!


i hate how everything seems to be falling apart. how is a dinner called a family dinner where one member is missing. how can you guys act like there's nothing wrong with this when every single bit of this is just absolutely wrong. pretty soon we can't even have a family dinner even if we wanted to. so why can't we all just forgive and forget.


am i reading too much into the little details
cause i am blinded by reality?