SHIT, it's back.

Today was pretty much awesome!
School was boring though!
We have been having MIKA FEVER!
happy eneding, billy brown, lollipop, love today, blame it on the girls, big girls you are beautiful!
(L)
AND OMG i thought i didn't bring my wallet, AND HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BUY MIKA TIX WITHOUT MONEY?!
so i cabbed home to get my wallet and on the way i decided to check for my wallet AGAIN!
OMG IT WAS INSIDE MY BAG!
wasted money on my cab :(
THEN I TOOK MRT TO BISHAN!
and i tapped my POSB CARD instead of my stupid CEPAS >: (
thatwas embarrassing but i doubt anybody saw (fingers crossed)


SO finally got down to Bishan, met Huiqi, Wanqi, Wenn Er and Rachel!
OMG BOUGHT OUR TICKETS!
GUESS WHO GOT FREE STANDING FOR MIKA, BITCHES!
ATE RAMEN AFTER THAT!
satisfied my hunger :)
omg Rachel was so full of shit about her nose job
"Just that they didn't remove my blackheads"
Then rachel and wenn er had to go for learning lab :(
Went down to Macs to study with Huiqi and wanqi it was kind of successful
but we also ended up talking and gossiping half the time.
THEN WE GOT CHASED OUT :(
went to the library!
I WAS IN A COMIC BOOK AND I GOT A SIMPSONS COMIC BOOK!
SIMPSONS!
then the library closed and we felt like eating supper!
HAPPY HOUR AT CAFE CARTEL! HALF PRICE!
it's a good deal!
Spaghetti, bread, cake, cheddar fries!
GOOOOD FOOOOOOOOD!


Left at like 10 plus!
haha my mum is going to kill me tomorrow when she wakes up!
:D
Well I THINK IT WAS A GOOD DECISION CANCELLING BIO TUITION!!!


It's worth holding on to.

I don't know what i would do without you guys. I love you guys (L)
Rachel, Wenn Er, Wanqi, KaiLin, Sarah, Huiqi, Natassia, Chengsin, Alexis.
I can't help but cry when i see the post its in my diary.

Sometimes, no matter how much you try to hide it, no matter how much you try to run away for it, you will always end up back in the same spot. Lonely and broken. Once you have been hurt, no amount of repairs can cover up the cracks.


I am trying really hard to keep it in me, but seeing you just makes me want to pour out everything and give you a hug which i haven't given you in years. I just want to say to you the three words that you deserve and i want you to tell me everything will be okay. But i i know that will never happen because i can't even bring myself to say a simply HI to you. When i see you, i can tell you are broken as well, i can tell you are keeping it in. I just want to make it better but i can't. I want your sweet embrace again.

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CONCENTRATE ON HOMEWORK WHEN MY HEAD IS WRAPPED AROUND SOMETHING ELSE!






yeah. shit happens.

hey this is my 701th post!
i miss how life was like exactly 5 years ago.

SATURDAYYYYYY
WILD WILD WETTTTTTT!!!!!!!
it was a celebration for shen-nen, Kailin and kind of Sarah's BIRTHDAY!!!!
met at Pasir Ris MRT! GUESS WHO WAS FIRST!
SO GOT THERE, and realised that WWW would only be open at 1 and it was 10.30 plus only!
But in the end we went to eat something and they let us in early!
it is pretty small BUT IT WAS FUN!
we took a BILLION PHOTOS! and sat the OOOOLALA thrice!
Kailin was damn scared, SHE SCREAMED EVEN BEFORE WE WERE PUSHED DOWN!


Halfway, we were kinda bored and Sarah and I were hungry so we ate KFC!
YUMMMMMMM FRIED CHICKEN (y)
then the tsunami pool was open! so we decided to go there! IDK HOW WE SPENT SO MUCH TIME THERE AND WE TOOK A MILLION PHOTOS THERE!
That was where we met our LOYAL STALKER!
oh gosh he was creepy! HIS CREEPY SMILE AND FLOAT AND EVERYTHNG!
So we tried taking underwater shots BUT KAILIN HAD TO KEEP LAUGHING MAKING EVERYONE ELSE LAUGH!
1,2,3 -laugh-laugh-laugh-
after a while, we got out and went to the shiok river, THEN THE STALKER CAME ALONG TOO!
WE TRIED TO GET AWAY, and it was pretty successful!


Got ready to go to Orchard, to meet Dione and watch ALICE IN WONDERLAND :)
WANQI DECIDED TO JOIN USSSSSSSSSS!
THE 3D WAS AWESOME!
omg and the 3D glasses were pretty cool!
the effect was reallly goooood! I LIKED IT :) (it's so pretty, i like it i like it!)
Then Sarah had to leave and we walked to wisma TO EAT!


OMG AT THE END OF THE DAY ALL OF US WERE SO TIRED!
but finally, I WENT OUT!
it's been so longggg!
Feels like holidays! School tomorrow D:


wake up and stop being a bitch.

Finally, a day to relax!
TODAY WAS REALLY FUN!
blog about it tomorrow.
SO TIRED.
i don't want History tuition :(
THANKS WANQI, SARAH, KAILIN, SHEN-NEN AND DIONE!
LOVE YOU GUYS :)


Spare a thought for him, because his feelings matter too.

Tuesday
SOOOOO Ben and Jerry's free cone day!!!
went with Rachel, wenn er, wanqi and huiqi!
we didn't get a free cone in the end cause the queue was INSANELY LONG!
and omg RACHEL AND WENN ER POSED FOR A PICTURE FOR THIS ECO FRIENDLY THING! HAHAHA!
We ate at Hong Kong cafe, WANQI HAS NEVER EATEN THERE!
It was pretty fun!
played i have never
" I HAVE NEVER CALLED MY TEACHER A TRIGO FUNCTION!"
hahahaha RACHEL CHAN!
Went to aprime with huiqi cause she had AMATH!
met lex and walked over to coro to eat!
STARBUCKS AGAIN! OMG MOCHA FRAPPACHINO IS GOOOD!
chem as usual and that's all!


WEDNESDAY
Mum just went to KL!
there has also been this Rat that has been around the house, yucks.
school was pretty much a drag.
that's all.


i can't stay another minute in here.

i can't take it anymore.
i really didn't want to know.

THANKS WANQI AND SARAH FOR THE PRESENT :)

I HAVEN'T BEEN SO FRUSTRATED IN A WHILE.

I don't know how to say it, i don't know who to say it to but it's been bugging me. What am i supposed to do? Just sit down here and pretend nothing is going to happen or wait for a miracle to happen?Everyday seems to be moving faster and faster and i doubt i can take anymore of this.

WORKSHEET 1-7 could you PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MAGICALLY APPEAR? i am begging you :(

I guess that's it. I see it now.

omg my ben 10 marathon ended :(
PROBABLY THE BEST BEN 10 ALIEN FORCE EPISODES YET.
omg BEN IS SO CUTE (this is weird but yeah.)
but halfway through my 4 hours in front of the tv some people started making an annoying amount of noise to disrupt it.
IT WAS SUCH A USELESS, UNREASONABLE MISUNDERSTANDING.
oh gosh, GROW UP.


Anyway had church yesterday!
cell was pretty fun!
i guess chengsin was in his LAME, HIGH MOOD.
and we were messing with zach yesterday!
hahahha
"LOOK UP!"
AND HE REALLY DID!
that was really funny oh gosh his expressions were priceless
"WHO IS THIS!"


school tomorrow! actually this week didn't feel very different actually
so school starting tomorrow is not much of a bummer.
OH BUT I HAVEN'T DONE MY HOMEWORK!
compre on tibetan buddhism :(


OH AND THANKS GLORIA FOR YOUR LETTER :D
it was really nice!
LOVE YOU!


And pretty soon all my trouble will pass
cause i'm a shoo-shoo-shoo-shoo sugartown.

YHUIQI! WHERE DID THIS COME FROM?!
HUIQI says (11:00 PM):
*NO
*YOU DONT
*YOU HAVE A DICK
*ONLY GUYS HAVE

time for tv and then i'm gonna crash.

At first, i felt bad, i felt guilty.
But seeing how you turned out takes all the guilt away.

BLONDE HAIR, BLUE-EYED POTENTIAL HAM PUT HIS ARM AROUND RACHEL CHAN?! KILL ME NOW.

TWO TUITIONS DOWN ONE MORE TO GO!
These holidays are the worse so far.
i have not gone out with anyone.
i have not watched a single movie.
i have not taken any photos.
OHMYGOSH BORING.


Honestly, i am in no position to judge but i just feel like i have to say this. You are being a bitch. I just hope you realise it sooner and do something about it cause it hurts.

You seem so irritating and desperate right now. Just don't forget about the rest.

WHO KNEW NOT TALKING TO CHENGSIN FOR ALMOST A MONTH would lead to a conversation WITH SO MUCH CONTENT.

It's so effing hard to bring up the words MAY and AMERICA.

OMG I AM SUPER BORED!
and i need to start on homework so badly.
MARCH HOLIDAYS ARE REALLY UNHAPPENING.
I NEED TO GO OUT NOW.

Saturday
Had NYWLD in the morning
Rachel and i have kind of SUCCESSFULLY learned the lil wayne part in down.
ARROWS IN THE SKY. (classic!)


WENT OUT WITH MY BROTHER IN THE AFTERNOON AFTER THAT.
it's been a while!
since he can drive THAT'S CONVENIENT. had to keep listening to his songs in the car.
BLAH BLAH BLAH, DOWN, YOU KNOW YOU WANT ME, and i have no idea what else.
we went to the NUS open house for a short while to waste time!
then headed down to town after 6, cause only then would the parking fee be per entry.
BUT OHYMGOODNESS later on when we left the parking fee was $7.50!
hahaha oh well it was quite nice walking around.
SHOPPED SHOPPED SHOPPED! i guess i didn't buy much but somehow i spent so much time there!
we ate at crystal jade, yum :)
AND I SPENT LIKE MY WHOLE ALLOWANCE ON THAT DAY!
no more cabbing this week :(


SUNDAY
went for dinner with rachel and wenn er
THEY MADE ME WAIT! but they kind of cabbed down!
we walked around spotlight finding masks for them.
THEY HAVE THE CUTEST MASKS.
Rachel was busy singing LOUDLY in spotlight.
walked around after that and we decided to go to cotton on to find rachel's soulmate/twin.
HAHAHHA HE WAS SINGING.
then they had the craziest idea to dress me up (?)
they made me wear clothes that made me look pregnant, BUT THEY INSISTED IT WAS NICE!
had MANHATTEN FISH MARKET after that.
YUM YUM! we kept laughing, AND COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING!
"can we have 2 manhatten fish markets? " (WHO SAID THIS?!)
HAHHA then i forgot what happen that made us laugh like shit.
Ice cream after that then went home!
THERE WAS A CUTE GUY ON THE MRT!!!
that's all i think!


Sometimes, things seem to be moving in a fast motion,
you seem to forget some things for a short while,
for a good few days,
but it always comes back and reminds you of things you wish you could forget
and throw it all away.

OMG

Kazuya Kamenashi

SO CUTEEEEEEEEE!

I love this song


Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around til' I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again, ooh

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah yeah
Then finally make me do just what my momma said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance, one final step
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again

I think i just have to let it out.
i think i will miss you, i will miss everything. I've been hoping and wishing for something that i know i will never get, and even if i do get it, it won't be a happy one. I miss not treasuring the times we had. I regret drifting from you for the longest time and now, all i can do is watch you go away. i hate how i can't open up to you, even if i do what will i say. For now, i just hope that regardless of how i treat you, you know i love you.

shitshitshit i can't concentrate on my history and ss. you could have picked a better timing.

2 MORE DAYS TILL OUR NOT- SO- MUCH- HOLIDAY.
how am i going to cram HISTORY, SS AND CHEM!
why must i have that stupid chem re-exam, WE ALREADY TOOK ONE!
history is driving me crazy, somehow chapter 3.2 is much easier than 3.1.


It finally rained today, it was a nice morning.


Why can't we travel in time,
to go to our future and see what we will be losing
so that we can treasure it now.

Another hot day in the sun.
I HATE THIS HEAT, IT IS INSANE.
BIO PRACTICAL TOMORROW! don't screw up Amelia!


No matter how much she denies it, the loneliness deep inside is slowly surfacing. She refuses to accept that she is lonely. Although her life seems perfect in many ways, all that is useless when she is empty on the inside.


I'm wearing thin. I am exhausted, tired, drained out from all this.Sometimes, all i want to do is run away, run away from everything.

WENN ER IS DAMN CUTE! I LOVE HER! (i love you criss cross bun :) )

14886.) I have the freedom that I want. It's just the loneliness that's slowly killing me.

RAN FOR SPORTS HEATS TODAY!
100M! i got 5th place :) out of 6 people.
HAHHAHA! then i tried doing shotput! SHIT DAMN HEAVY SO I JUST DROPPED OUT.


went for house relieving again today with lex!
omg the houses are all damn freaking NICE! one day WE ARE GOING TO 6TH AVENUE.
i am dragging her along WHETHER SHE LIKES IT OR NOT.
had the usual dinner and Frances joined.
Lex listens to JAYJAY AND CYNDI HONEY. OH GOSH LEX, OH GOSH.
i think i was kind of high during tuition today DAMN FUNNY.
WE GOT OUR PLUS PLUS PLUS STUDENT JOINING TODAY.


ohoh my brother got his licence! NOT BAD!!!!!!
now i have my personal driver!!!!!!!


Just a holiday, ALL of us, and i will be satisfied.


I am coming to realise that knowing everything may not neccessary be a good thing. The tough part comes when you have to deal with it.

I AM GOING TO ATTEMPT TO NOT CANCEL A SINGLE TUITION THIS WEEK (: