I hate admitting it but i hate you for leaving.
I hate you for disappearing.
I hate how everytime you come back, it makes no difference.
I hate how everything is minus one now.

Today will be a day which i will keep hoping knowing nothing will happen.
Today will be a day i will try to believe knowing it will be futile.
Today will be a day that will hopefully be better.
And when the bright morning light shines in, something will change.

It suddenly occured to me
while i was at Serene studying alone and smsing a bunch of people.
At the same time, everyone was smsing me about their dinner and i was wondering why the hell was I at macdonalds studying biology.

Carnival's over!
it was pretty okay i guess. Basically just walked around with Huiqi, Wanqi, Sarah, Amanda, Rachel hahha!
OUR BOOTH WAS REALLY FAIL.
quite a few people went for carnival!


I screwed up bio test and oral.
WTH BIO TEST WAS SO DIFFICULT
and i just didn't know was my chinese oral tester was saying.
I hate school, it's so stressful from the tests to the homework to the after-school remedials.


What's the point in trying if you don't seem to bother at all. Giving up is just much easier than having to try for something that is pointless. I am so confused to the point where i just can't be bothered to try to figure it out anymore because i'm tired of all this.

I really really hate school.


So we got back our math tests, AND AS USUAL i think i got lower in class. 19/30 :(
AND IT WAS FILLED WITH CARELESS MISTAKES AGAIN!
Mrs Gan was really angry cause we have to AIM FOR PERFECTION and get full marks, and only pei wei got full marks.
PEI WEI >: (
Sarah got 25! WHAT! but she wasn't allowed to be happy.


Went out with Wenn Er and Rachel to Ion for burger King.
it was quite fun!
haha i kind of forgot what happened.
Rachel was SUPER SUPER EXCITED CAUSE SHE BOUGHT CHERRY AND BANANA PENCIL CASES.
hahahaa! i really need a pencil case :(


Had chem tuition after that!
Dinner and starbucks with lex and frances :)
I think tuesdays is my favourite weekday!
then went to meet Wanqi and Huiqi for a short while.
OMG TUITION WAS SO BORING until like towards the end when ethan said MEBU! THAT WAS DAMN FREAKING FUNNNY!
we were all thinking it but never said it, THEN WHEN HE SAID IT OUT.
it was SUPER FUNNY.


WEDNESDAY!
Today was really tiring and i was irritated at the slightest things.
Had 10 round race and RACHEL CHAN FELL! HAHHAHA!
it was disgusting :( THE BLOOD AND STUFF!
then because of 10 round race I FELT SO STICKY FOR THE REST OF THE DAY!
And i was falling asleep during all the lessons esp history.


But chinese remedial was cancelled and Math remedial made today a little nicer.
Sat with Lex, Athena, Huiqi, Kailin and lecindra.
THEN WE WERE TALKING AND LAUGHING LIKE SHIT!
"Doesn't matter"
HAHHAHA SHIT I LOVE OUR REMEDIAL TEACHER (Y)


i just don't see the point in anything right now.

OMG :(

Weekends are over :(
Saturday
Trainings are sucha waste of time!
coach wasn't there so we had a replacement :(
AND I WAS SO EFFING TIRED THAT I DIDN'T WANT TO PLAY!
I ended up sitting at the court completing my bio tuition homework.
then lex and i decided to leave early and went to STARBUCKS :D
i LOVE starbucks early in the morning.


SUNDAY
Met HUIQI AND WANQI on sunday at lido.
I WAS LAST so i had to buy us food :(
it felt like a public holiday on Sunday!
So i didn't do any work at first, walked to far east to find clothes to buy!
OMG I WANT TO SHOP SO SO SO BADLY.
We ate at Food republic, OMG I WISH I COULD HAVE THE FOOD COURT IN MY HOUSE :(
Wanqi had to leave so Huiqi and i went back to lido and did work.
that's the end of weekends :(


Monday
OMG school is a drag.
I REALLLY HATE SCHOOL.
we got caught for sleeping during bio (after sleeping for idk how many times : / )
the only thing that makes it bearable is probably the friends.
STUPID TESTS ARE SCREWING UP MY GRADES.
i kind of give up on tests.
I mean not like certain people even give a damn and acknowledge effort right.


RACHEL AND I WERE ALL OVER THE
YO B!
WHATTUP A!
omg it just suddenly came to me in the middle of chinese.


I'll try to run away and see how that goes for me.

FRIDAY (2/4 )
Woke up at like 6.30!!!
Met Rachel and Huiqi at Bishan and we took a mrt down to CHANGI AIRPORT :)
omg the mrt ride was like AN HOUR LONG!
Reached there and saw some cute hams along the way :D:D:D
We walked around and decided to study at Macs!
BOUGHT BREAKFAST :) HOT CAKESSSSSSSS (y)(y)(y)


We did A LITTLE BIT OF WORK! HAHAHHA!
Huiqi did the most i think! i did like 2 worksheets of bio? and rachel did a few questions!
hahahha!
we were really tired AND HAD NO MOOD TO DO ANY WORK.
so we ended up gossiping, bitching and crapping.
Huiqi told us the story bout sealegslexi (i think that's her tumblr name) OMG IT IS SO FREAKING SWEEEEEEETTTTTTT :(:(:(
Rachel couldn't come to orchard with us :(


Headed to orchard with HQ and met tass there.
so we walked around.
wanqi ditched :( (but i guess she had a valid reason!)
BUT HUIQI AND I WERE D-A-M-N tired!
AND I WAS CARRYING HER FREAKING BIO BOOK :(
My shoulders died and her bag was really heavy for some reason too!
Oh i met Kailin cause she was in ION! hahaha I LOVE KAI :D
Actually our walk around orchard felt like a dream cause i was so extremely tired and my eyelids were so heavy i don't exactly rmb what happened!
IT IS AMAZING HOW WE STAYED THERE FOR ABOUT 4 HOURS!


I wonder why i even bother when you don't give even the slightest bit of concern for it. Great to know that you were always there and how i thought you were amazing.

chengsin says: "it's your fault for being too cool!"

THURSDAY (1/4)
Had a party at dairy farm's function room!
EVERYONE WAS LATE!
so Ruijia, Nat, Chelsea, Lex, Yimei , michelle and I Were waiting for everyone to come.
OMG WE WERE STARVING LIKE HELL.
And after begging Ruijia and Nat they let lex, chels and I eat! OMG THE FOOD WAS REALLY GOOOOD!!!!!!!!
THEN EVERYONE CAME!
SUPER LATE! but they had training before that so i guess it was kinda rush.


Played Taboo!
Split our groups into the WINNING TEAM and DORAEMON (or the WINNERS ALR)