i hate how i am so selfish, self centered and don't think about anyone for myself. how i couldn't be there for you when you needed it. how i couldn't give you constructive advice and to comfort you when you cried your eyes out. how can you find another friend this bad, who would leave you behind while i move on to a whole other life. now everything's changed and i have no one else to blame. but i just miss how everything used to be. now i am over-analysing everything, getting paranoid over the most trivial things. it's turning me into a freak who thinks the world revolves around her. now watching you dealing with all this pain and i can't do anything but to help, watching everyone scold you, and me being part of that. what i would give to have you back with us.